Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Quiet

Things will probably be pretty quiet around here for awhile. I've been quite sick for some time now. I won't go into all my symptoms but mostly my joints are killing me and I'm exhausted all the time. It could be as simple as my thyroid causing issues or something more serious. We get health insurance next week, then I have to find a doctor and get an appointment. Thankfully I haven't been working too many hours at work so I'm not killing myself. The only thing that could make me feel a little better?

Seeing this sweet face every morning again. Having my foot warmer and comforter as the weather turns colder.
He's always reminded me a bit of a clown, or jester, if you will. Due in part to his white face and goofy ears when he was little but also due to his traveling/sleeping bear. The bear can be seen in the background of the following pictures. He was a jester. When Eclipse was 4.5/5 months old he ripped the hat on the bear from playing tug with it and it had to be thrown away. However, he'll always be my little clown!
Even when he was ten weeks old, after the wreck, he knew when I simply couldn't get up and work with him a ton. He was content to lay at my feet all day, even at that tender age. Due to how intune we were with each other (for many many reasons that I'll delve into right now) I feel like my relationship with Eclipse is as close as I will ever get to knowing what the bond between a service dog and his handler feels like. It's something I'll cherish forever. I just wish I could feel that bond everday, for the rest of Eclipse's life. I only got to spend 4.5 months with the amazing boy, yet we accomplished and went through so much together in that short time. Those 4.5 months were probably the happiest months I've experienced in puppy raising, in regards to the dog I was working with, anyway. I would trade those months for nothing, having my very own caregiver, who I was also caring for. It was a give and take relationship, more so than any other relationship I've experienced, other than the one I share with Alex, of course ;-)


Charlie is getting neutered on Friday. He may spend the weekend here since it's quieter, but we shall see. I'm having a hard time bonding with him, partially because he's not here full-time but also because he's not Eclipse. It's similar to what I felt with Eola. My time with Eclipse wasn't finished, not in my heart, I never got closure. It'd impeding my progress in puppy raising. By the time I get a puppy of my own, I hope I'll be ready.


This is a long post to say it'll be quiet. Sorry. What I meant to say is; I feel really awful, am still working, still missing my caregiver and hope he's doing okay, Charlie's getting neutered Friday, some major changes may be coming up for Alex and I and it may be quiet on this blog for awhile.

I hope all is well with everyone, especially Eclipse.


Ally, Teddy & Kira (seems such an empty signature!) & of course, Eclipse in my heart!

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